Monday, April 8, 2013
Please be pleased.
I am certainly a people pleaser to an extent. I've been thinking about this so much the last few days. I want (crave) for people to be happy with me and to relate to me. I desire relationships to form out of common goals and focuses and bonds.
I wanted to go social media free on the weekends because I adore Lara Casey.
I wanted to go sugar free a la cold turkey because I love Jami Nato.
I wanted them to be happy with me.
And proud of me.
And friends with me.
But I was doing these things all for me. I didn't have a conviction to drop all sweets and tweets. I just wanted to jump on the bandwagon with people who inspire me.
I know what it's like to get totally fired up about something (ahem, The Cove). I want people I care about to buy into it with me. To fight for it with me. To feel it how I do. Of course I want to be behind the things that those amazing, God-fearing women are doing.
I think what they are doing is valid. They are good things to focus on and grow in.
I believe that being social media free on weekends for these past 2+ months has been good for me. I also feel like it's much more beneficial when you have your family home with you on the weekends. When Jordan works all day and I'm home alone doing laundry, I don't want to feel ashamed if I cave and tweet (which I haven't)! When I'm spending time with my mom or sister, it's good for me to spend time focusing on them and not on my phone. I get the benefits. Truly.
I have decided to make healthier choices than I once did when it comes to what I choose to eat. I also know that it helps to do things in moderation, even having two pieces of Easter candy! Hahah.
I wanted them to like me, but the truth is, it doesn't matter if they do or don't.
(But they do right?!)
My God is grace-giving. He wants good things for me and realizes the benefits of less social media and less fast food in my life.
He also loves me the same if I keep my phone glued to my hand and eat Wendy's every day.
I guess I needed to realize all of this.
It's ok to follow in the footsteps of amazing people.
It's also ok to choose your own path, as long as it is a narrow one.
I'm still learning and growing day by day. So thankful that God has given me such astounding examples. Glad they are imperfect but covered in grace too.