Please be pleased.

I am certainly a people pleaser to an extent. I've been thinking about this so much the last few days. I want (crave) for people to be happy with me and to relate to me. I desire relationships to form out of common goals and focuses and bonds.

I wanted to go social media free on the weekends because I adore Lara Casey.

I wanted to go sugar free a la cold turkey because I love Jami Nato.

I wanted them to be happy with me.
And proud of me.
And friends with me.

But I was doing these things all for me. I didn't have a conviction to drop all sweets and tweets. I just wanted to jump on the bandwagon with people who inspire me.

I know what it's like to get totally fired up about something (ahem, The Cove). I want people I care about to buy into it with me. To fight for it with me. To feel it how I do. Of course I want to be behind the things that those amazing, God-fearing women are doing.

I think what they are doing is valid. They are good things to focus on and grow in.

I believe that being social media free on weekends for these past 2+ months has been good for me. I also feel like it's much more beneficial when you have your family home with you on the weekends. When Jordan works all day and I'm home alone doing laundry, I don't want to feel ashamed if I cave and tweet (which I haven't)! When I'm spending time with my mom or sister, it's good for me to spend time focusing on them and not on my phone. I get the benefits. Truly.

I have decided to make healthier choices than I once did when it comes to what I choose to eat. I also know that it helps to do things in moderation, even having two pieces of Easter candy! Hahah.

I wanted them to like me, but the truth is, it doesn't matter if they do or don't.
(But they do right?!)
My God is grace-giving. He wants good things for me and realizes the benefits of less social media and less fast food in my life.
He also loves me the same if I keep my phone glued to my hand and eat Wendy's every day.

I guess I needed to realize all of this.
It's ok to follow in the footsteps of amazing people.
It's also ok to choose your own path, as long as it is a narrow one.
I'm still learning and growing day by day. So thankful that God has given me such astounding examples. Glad they are imperfect but covered in grace too.


Love y'all,
Jessica